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idea_of_sarcasm ([personal profile] idea_of_sarcasm) wrote2009-03-19 11:26 pm

Ficlet: The Secret (Blaise/Hermione *adult*)

So, remember back four months ago when I took prompts for Christmas drabbles/ficlets? Yeah, I know, just awhile ago. Still, I felt bad about only writing fic for the one from [ profile] drcjsnider since writing fell by the wayside when I started to get too busy, so over time I would like to finish the others. Since, uh, most of the prompts were holiday related I'm going to amend them as I can (or, choose random prompts as needed I suppose).

Title: The Secret
Author: [ profile] idea_of_sarcasm
Pairing: Blaise/Hermione
Rating: NC-17
Prompt: Secret Santa by [ profile] kendas
Author's notes: Heh, only ~850 words and it's more adult than the pieces I submitted for 'porn' exchanges. Really creative title, I am aware.

Hermione has a secret.

When it comes right down to it, Hermione actually has many secrets. Sometimes she feels like she's juggling them all at once, with so many balls in the air that she can't let one fall because then the whole rhythm will become disrupted, and the careful facade she has established will come crashing down around her. She has things she keeps from Ron, others from Harry, from Ginny, from her parents, from everybody and nobody in between. Certain people are allowed to know certain things, and sometimes it's like an ongoing mantra she has to recite in her head, trying to keep track of what aspect of her life and what secrets of others she is keeping from whom today.

Currently though, she is only focusing on one single secret. It's a little easier to remember because she keeps it from everybody - keeps him from everybody.


If it were anybody else, she might worry about how he feels in regards to being given only a little separate box in the organization that is her life. Still, if there is a demand that he won't make, that's it. Somehow she thinks his reasons for not broadcasting their involvement differ from hers, but the end result is the same. It's not that she's ashamed of him, it's not that it's sordid or illicit, but it's....something. Something that she's not used to, and something she doesn't understand. If she can't comprehend it, how is anybody else supposed to? Hermione is fairly sure they'll judge her for reasons beside his inscrutable personality; Slytherin is the first strike against him, the fact they don't have a relationship along the guidelines of what is normal for her is a strong second. Harry and Ron, they at least certainly won't need a third.

It's a fight she doesn't need or want - even less because she doesn't have the answers they'll be after.

"You're thinking," Blaise murmurs. His fingers are digging lightly into her hips, the knickers that covered them long since banished.

Her lips curve. "I thought that was one of the things you liked about me."

"Not when," his hands are gliding now, the tone of his skin a stark contrast to the pale of hers, "you're in bed with me. Not when," his hands are sliding under her now, urging her hips up, moving her legs apart, "I'm working so hard to distract you."

When his head lowers to her core, it's two sets of lips meeting. The kiss is more chaste than any he's ever placed to her mouth, but all the more erotic. His tongue darts out and flits against her clit, but she's already a boneless mess against the mattress. Her thoughts are jumbled, only focusing on the fact she wants him to go either faster, or simply slide up and fuck her because it's a desperate torture he's inflicting. Hermione is also fairly sure he realizes that, because it's something he specializes in. Her moans only seem to be an encouragement for him to back off, the touch of his mouth lighter now, teasing more around the edges than the contact she actually craves. She has to bite her tongue against cursing him out, and she can almost swear she feels a smirk against her skin as he kisses the inside of her thigh.

"Please," Hermione begs, she can't help it.

Sometimes she's fairly sure bringing that supplication is the thing that pleases him the most. She certainly knows when she can induce it in him, the sexual power is a giddy feeling she's never experienced before.

There's no hesitation as he moves up over her, the taste of her fresh on his lips as he brings his head down to kiss her, even as he slides into her with such force to urge her back. It doesn't repel her, though it might have once, her nails only leave half moon crescents on his shoulders as she tries to keep up and give herself an anchor because he's giving her no respite.

The speed of her orgasm surprises her with the ease, but it shoots through her like lightning as her teeth bite into her lip - her body a quivering and shaking mess, milking him out as he searches for his own.

His body is a welcome weight on hers as his arms buckle, their breaths mingling. It's these moments she relishes the most; when he's lost the control she's come to associate with him. It never lasts long, but it's enough. Like everything to do with him, it's all somehow just perfectly enough.

This won't stay a secret if it lasts. Still, for now somehow it makes it more hers, rather than something to be dissected and judged. It makes the experience something more owned, even if she's fairly sure she holds no ownership over him. She can feel ties that bind her to him, and Blaise to her in return, but it's only the wispy thread of an unidentified emotion neither of them has any experience with. It's not the kind of permanence that she thinks can withstand the outside world. Like this, she can take it as she will, take him as she will, and feel about it how she chooses.

Hermione might be very good at keeping secrets, but at least for the moment this is one that she's actually satisfied to keep.

[identity profile] 2009-03-20 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, lovely! It's nice to read this pairing from you again.
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[identity profile] 2009-03-20 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
Well, at least once a year I have to go back to at least drabbling them :). I know I can't remember the last time I read this pairing (at least 'new' fic). I'm glad you enjoyed it!
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[identity profile] 2009-03-20 06:16 am (UTC)(link)
Mmm, this is really nice. ♥
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[identity profile] 2009-03-20 06:33 am (UTC)(link)
♥ I'm glad you thought so ;) It's been awhile since I've been *cough* brief. It's actually a bit of a struggle, ha.

[identity profile] 2009-03-20 08:03 am (UTC)(link)
I want to go work on my Hermione/Blaise story now, damn you. This was lovely. I really liked the opening paragraph, it was beautifully written. And Hermione's little dig about Blaise liking her because she thinks - *bounces*

Thank you so much.
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
If it's inspiring you to go write, I say all the better ;) I am very glad you enjoyed it though. These two are...different to write, and sometimes I worry I'm not coming back to them in the same way I picture things in my head.

You're welcome :) Even if it is just a little bit after the fact....

[identity profile] 2009-03-20 08:33 am (UTC)(link)
That's really lovely, and very nicely observed, too. I especially like the opening paragraph about Hermione keeping lots of secrets, and this:

Still, for now somehow it makes it more hers, rather than something to be dissected and judged. It makes the experience something more owned, even if she's fairly sure she holds no ownership over him. She can feel ties that bind her to him, and Blaise to her in return, but it's only the wispy thread of an unidentified emotion neither of them has any experience with. It's not the kind of permanence that she thinks can withstand the outside world.

I like the idea of them protecting something tentative and new. It's good reason for keeping a secret, quite apart from the unconventional and Slytherin thing. :)
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much for the comment, it means a lot :) Those two paragraphs are the things that I actually felt the best about in the writing. I'm really glad they worked for you as well! (and yes, I think that last reason from my point of view, if not hers, is the best reason for keeping the secret...)
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[identity profile] 2009-03-20 12:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Gorgeous. I love how sensual they are together. You write a wonderful Hermione, and that slight air of melancholy throughout the story makes is all the more poignant.

Btw, I caved, and signed up for [ profile] hermionebigbang.
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
To be honest, I've always pictured Hermione and Blaise as a fairly sensual pairing - based on some lovely characterizations I read from others actually. I'm really glad that came through here because 'sensual' isn't, uh, something I write easily. Thank you for commenting, I'm glad you enjoyed it!

And ha, somehow I'm not surprised! I thought you might cave more at the last minute though. I hope writing Hermione comes easier than you thought it might :)

[identity profile] 2009-03-21 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
Isn't it tragic how predictable I am? ;P

It seem to be going well so far. How about you?
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
*snort* I have yet to start! I have a few ideas, but nothing settled on yet. I was planning on waiting until after I wrote my [ profile] hp_rarities fic but....I have a feeling I'm going to be more inspired for this :-P

[identity profile] 2009-03-20 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Nice! I really like the start of this and Hermione talking about why she doesn't talk about Blaise to anyone... very good stuff!
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[identity profile] 2009-03-21 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) I am really glad that you enjoyed it. I can't just picture those two as having a completely transparent/meet the friends and parents type of relationship right off the bat.

[identity profile] 2009-04-16 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
That was great. I really liked it! =)
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[identity profile] 2009-04-27 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
*is an idiot who forgot to reply to this comment*

Thank you so much! I'm very glad that you enjoyed it :)


(Anonymous) 2009-08-05 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
Nice story, can you write another one with a longer sex scene. lol. I think she came way to fast lol, but yeah I really liked how you spoke about her pale sking mingling with his dark skin. I think that's hott.
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Re: Blaise/Hermione

[identity profile] 2009-08-05 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
Ha, yeah, probably not going to happen :) I admit my sex scenes tend to be more brief than extended (in writing of course). However thank you so much for commenting, I'm glad you enjoyed the rest - it was imagery that I really liked myself!